一位75岁诗人的粒子物理深空视场 □ 创世纪 [印度]迪利普·嘉韦利 殷晓媛译

创世纪

[印度]迪利普·嘉韦利

殷晓媛译

错落花间

某只轻盈蝴蝶的

欢腾雀跃的浮光一点

妙曼地破解了造物脚本

芳馨与甘美深处

一棵体系庞博之树在隆隆勃发

树冠将花团锦簇

等待飞掠而过的蝶群

须臾的高潮

永恒的存在

恒星的演绎生变不也如此？

一秒钟之残片，又或者只是亿万分之一

大爆炸后

亿万年弹指一挥间

在那个尚未以年份划分的纪元

在那个时间之说未曾诞生的旷古

而“我”存在之脚本

已然在编程中静候

内敛腼腆的氮与贪得无厌的碳

如今共同向意气洋洋的氧发起求爱攻势

而氢正忙于将玻色子敲入氦中

它们内蕴的、性情温敦的质子

被环绕慵懒中子的蓬勃电子骁勇追逐

在原子级露天圆形赛场中角斗士们一决高下

竞技场中层层挤满

踊跃不止的轻子，乔装改扮的介子，神气活现的声子，钢盔加顶的强子

欢愉的分子们相互配对并繁殖

一如摩天大厦螺旋状拔地而起

在这初现端倪的巨型城池中

声子为川流不息的夸克与反夸克摇旗打灯

重子于能量之河上飞架桥梁

引力子宛如厢式电梯上下往复

穿梭于空洞、巢穴、小屋与贫民窟间

遵循着万古不变的量子定律

宫殿、城堡、国度与王权不断诞生又覆灭

色彩、气息、味道与声响，滚烫与冰冷

应序而生

倘若曾有孕育超新星、彗星与黑洞的混沌

那依然在因果的

秩序边界之内

有着两面神简奈斯面孔的奇点

一切所谓偶发事件早已在预设之中

我遥想

瞬息即逝的诗正如这轻盈之蝶

栖息在我唇边等待

语词如呼吸般不羁蒸腾

但无论我或万物的走向

每一种可能均已定稿

肤色深浅、瞳孔颜色、身高体重、饮食癖好

情绪、性取向、神经错乱症状、未来恶质的先兆

尽管如此，户外暴晒仍会让我皮肤黝黑

不喜继母的厨艺我肉清骨羸身形瘦小

受初恋规行矩步影响我甚至不饮啤酒

在她弃我而去后依然滴酒不沾

为服装设计师工作的我有无数机会拈花惹草

至于疯狂，作为诗人我在劫难逃

谁又说得准有生之年我是否有幸患上前列腺癌！

无知即自由

无知使我

成为一名诗人

Hubble Deep Field Space Photography

附原文：

Genesis

An effervescent touch

of a light butterfly

from one flower to another

mysteriously decodes a hidden programme

Beyond the fragrance and sweetness is concealed

a massive tree rising up somewhere

There will be countless flowers on it

waiting for fleeting butterflies

Momentary orgasms and everlasting existence

Is that how the stars were formed?

A split, no, a billionth of a second

and the Big Bang

and billions of years have passed

A time when a year also did not exist

A time when the Time did not exist

and yet the programme of my existence

was already coded

since timorous Nitrogen and covetous Carbon

were concurrently courting complacent Oxygen

while Hydrogen was busy hammering Bosons into Helium

within their bodies placid Proton was vigorously chased

by vibrant Electron encircling inert Neutron

In the atomic amphitheatre contested gladiators

The arena was teeming with

leaping Leptons, masquerading Mesons, perky Phonons, helmeted Hadrons

while the cheering molecules conjugated to multiply

to form spirally soaring skyscrapers

In the emerging mega polis

Photons signalled automobiles of Antiquarks and Quarks

Baryons were building bridges over rivers of energy

Gravitons were lifts going up or down

Thus from holes, nests, huts and tenements

 according to immutable quantum laws

palaces,castles, nations and empires were founded and destroyed

Colours,odours, flavours, sounds, heat and cold

came into existence obeying the Law

If there was chaos of supernovas and comets and black holes

it was still within the order

of the cause and effect

that were a Janus-faced singularity

Accidents were foreordained

while I imagined

that ephemeral Poetry like a light butterfly

settled on my lips for words to transpire

as easily as my breath

But in every possible way it was already decided what I or everything will be:

My skin-shade, colour of the eyes, height, weight, drinking habits,

moods,sexual proclivity, signs of madness, omens of future malignancies

And yet, playing outdoors I turned dark

Disliking my stepmother’s cooking I remained underweight and short

Because my first girlfriend was a prude I did not drink even beer

And remained a teetotaller even after she jilted me

Working for a dress-designer I had ample opportunity to romp

Madness I could not escape, being a poet

And who knows if I shall live long enough to get prostate cancer!

This ignorance is my freedom

and because I am ignorant

I am a Poet

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